tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89381118858247716222024-03-05T11:01:37.653-08:00IT WAS HER NEW YORKA <i> <b>My Private Coney</b></i> project <br> Flash non-fiction, brief moments and old memories of a city and mother's emotional and physical real estate disappearing at the speed of heartbreak.c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.comBlogger1458125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-85534881575764423672020-05-16T17:09:00.000-07:002020-05-22T19:03:35.040-07:00Guest Artist: Paine - Notes from the Inside #8<b><span style="font-size: large;"><i>My friend Paine, who is on the autism spectrum, looks through the looking glass of the pandemic</i></span></b><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;"><i>N</i></span></b><i><span style="font-size: large;"><b>OTES FROM THE INSIDE #8</b></span></i></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">It’s strange, there’s
all this glum stuff being said on the news, so much in fact that it would make
someone want to give up on our country and head for Canada. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">There’s two problems
with this though, 1) Canada won’t take anyone trying to cross the border and 2)
running away won’t solve any problems, either nationally or individually. Yet I
still see a lot of things that give me hope. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">I saw a lot of people
shopping at Wal Mart the other day, a majority of whom were wearing masks and
gloves. There were even lines on the floor either telling people to go one way
down each aisle or to stay 6 feet or a carts length apart from everyone else. I
didn’t notice what any of them were buying but it was good just to see people
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">I also saw kids around
my neighborhood playing outside again which is great to see given the current
climate. There were even some people sitting on their front stoops outside
their houses, some of them talking to some people, from a distance of course,
Some of them sitting in a chair having a drink. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">I even saw more cars
on the road then before, not too much more but more than there’s previously
been. There’s even been more people heading to the supermarket, Target, Wal
Mart or getting take out from local restaurants. So, things are starting to get
back to some semblance of normal, at least they are where I am, I don’t know
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">What I do know is that
when everything opens up again I hope that both businesses and people act
responsibly because the virus is still out there and it’s not going to go away
just because everything is open once again.</span></div>
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c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-51181968985921564472020-05-02T09:39:00.003-07:002020-05-16T17:10:41.969-07:00Guest Artist: Paine - Notes from the Inside #7<b><span style="font-size: large;"><i>My friend Paine, who is on the autism spectrum, sends his hopes and dreams out into the world.</i></span></b><br />
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<i><span style="font-size: large;"><b>Imagine all the people, living life in peace, you may say I’m a
dreamer, but I’m not the only one, I hope someday you’ll join us and the
world will live as one.”</b></span></i></div>
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When John Lennon first sang those words, he called for people of his
generation to come together to help make a better world. I think that
those words ring true now more than ever.</div>
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I’ve said many times that things were going to get better and I stand
by those words but the way they get better is if we make them better.
We cannot just sit around waiting for someone to find a way to get us
out of our current situation with this virus, we ourselves need to get
up and help make things better, then we will not only advance as a
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I know things seem bleak now and some people might think that it’s
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This virus has dealt us a huge blow, now is the time for us to get up
and fight back against it in whatever way we can, whether it be by
practicing social distancing or by giving to charity or by simply
thanking all our first responders.</div>
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c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-66677770271071363302020-04-25T06:36:00.001-07:002020-05-02T09:38:27.067-07:00Guest Artist: Paine - Notes from the Inside #6<br />
<i>My friend Paine, who is on the autism spectrum, checks in again. And he calls it as he sees it - skype as much as you need to - getting "together" is important. But to really flatten the curve, action talks and BS walks. Put on a mask and gloves and keep social distance. Actively work to flatten the curve.</i><br />
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<i>Personally, this resonates for me. I stepped outside for the first time in a month to see a doctor and I saw way too many people (mostly under 30! Why?) walking around without a mask or gloves. Those folks are more dangerous to me that an 1970s mugger at 2 a.m. in the morning. </i><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial";">Since I started writing these notes, a lot of things have happened, not just in the world, but in my own life. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial";">I managed to find another job that pays well and I’ve heard a lot of good things about people coming together to raise money for and awareness about the virus. This is great, this needs to keep going if we are to get out of our current situation. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial";">Our leaders need to put aside politics, put aside egos, do what they were put in office to do and help the American people. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial";">The media needs to stop spreading fear of the disease and tell us what is being done to help contain and eventually cure it, but most of all, we as a nation need to come together and help each other get through these dark times and not just by getting together via Skype or FaceTime or whatever webcam service people use to talk to each other or have a singalong. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial";">We need to do our part to fight this virus, whether it be washing our hands, wearing a face mask and gloves when we go out or even donating to help with the effort in combating the virus. This situation will get resolved, how long and how fast it takes for it to do so is up to us.</span></div><style>
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a unique take on things and continues to share it with us here.</i><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: x-large;">NOTES FROM THE INSIDE #5</span></b></div>
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During
the week I heard that a scientist said that people in our country might
have to practice social distancing until the year 2022.<br />
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When I heard that, I thought that people would really start
panicking, I also thought of all the things that happened to cause all
of this to happen and of what needs to be done to make sure we get
through this.<br />
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If our government hadn’t kept downplaying this virus then chances
are, we probably wouldn’t be in the mess we’re in. As it is however, we
are and we need to come together to help each other get through this
tough time.<br />
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I’ve seen people on social media doing some good things such as
Broadway stars singing songs from their homes. There’s even been TV
specials where people sing songs from their homes, sometimes even
encouraging home viewers to sing along.<br />
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This is proof that we’re all in the same boat and that we can and
will get through this very tough time.<br />
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I don’t know how long this will
last but I do know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it
might take us a little while to get there, but we will get there.<br />
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<br /><i></i>c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-7252677531411444392020-04-10T18:24:00.000-07:002020-04-10T18:24:06.529-07:00Guest Artist: Payne - Notes from the Inside #4<i>Payne, my dearest friend who has mild autism and OCD once again nails it.</i><br />
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being interviewed. In the interview he said something along the lines of that
<b>people would listen to Kendall Jenner before they listen to someone like him,</b>
which is why people on social media need to talk about how important it is to
shelter in place, wash your hands, use a face mask, all the stuff everybody has
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to do to slow and eventually stop the spread of the virus. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I also think that if our government had taken this virus
seriously from the beginning, we wouldn’t be in the position we’re in right now
and have to do these things. The government has downplayed this virus for so
long and that has caused our country to almost come to a standstill. If they
had taken this virus seriously we would be safer and less panicked as we are
now, but this is the way things are at the moment and because of that we need
to come together. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">We need to listen to what health care officials say and do what
we can to slow and eventually stop the spread of the virus. I know it can be
tough to do all these things but the more people do them, the healthier we can
get. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">When this pandemic is over however, we cannot forget this virus
and all the suffering it caused, otherwise we won’t be ready for when and if
the next one hits.</span></div>
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{page:WordSection1;}</style></i>c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-63648962422282192262020-04-04T07:27:00.000-07:002020-04-06T04:21:58.426-07:00Guest Artist: Payne - Notes from the Inside #3<i>Payne, my dearest friend who has mild autism and OCD sent me another note. Once again, this extraordinary young man blew me out of the water. If more people were like him, there would be toilet paper on the shelves and masks in hospitals and policies </i><i><i>in this country</i> that put people first.</i><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><u><b>NOTES FROM THE INSIDE #3</b></u></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Fred Rogers once said “Look For The
Helpers.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">It seems to me that people are
looking for more negative things to say about this situation than they are
positive things. I get it, these are scary times and it does seem that every
other country in the world is taking care of the virus situation before we can,
but there are many things that are happening in response to this virus. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">I heard about professional athletes
organizing drives to get food to help victims of the virus and celebrities and
other people getting together to help people through this time. Yes we are
going through some bad times right now, especially with China and South Korea
seeming to get a handle on this situation faster than our country can, but even
in the darkest of times there are glimmers of hope to be found, we just have to
know where to look for them. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Now more than ever we need to “Look
For The Helpers” and perhaps even become helpers ourselves, because when we
work together and help each other we can get through any panic and any dark
time like the one we are currently in. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12.0pt;">When it is over and this virus is
gone however, we cannot forget what happened because of it, how many people
have suffered, gotten sick or died because of this virus because if we do, we
won’t be prepared for when and if this happens again.</span></div>
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{page:WordSection1;}</style>c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-84311561822026703052020-03-27T15:35:00.000-07:002020-03-30T07:18:54.302-07:00Guest Artist: Payne - Notes from the Inside #2<i>My old friend<a href="https://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2020/03/guest-artist-payne-notes-from-inside.html" target="_blank"> Payne</a>, a young man with mild autism and a passionate and patriotic heart, visited me again.</i><br />
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<u><span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><br /></b></span></u></div>
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<u><span style="font-size: x-large;"><b>NOTES FROM THE INSIDE - #2</b></span></u></div>
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When the week began I felt depressed, I miss hanging out
with my friends, going to the movies, going out to dinner, all things that can
no longer be done because of this virus. </div>
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On top of that I heard that the president wants to open up
everything in two weeks, which is honestly the most irresponsible thing that
could be done. Opening up everything after two weeks would cause the virus to
spread almost to the point that we couldn’t be able to contain it, but I guess
we should expect nothing less from a man who prioritizes money and ego over the
health and safety of the people he’s supposed to be governing. </div>
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As usual the media’s reporting on the situation isn’t
helping, it’s only making people more scared. We need to stop panicking and
start using our common sense, this is a time where we need to come together and
help each other through these tough times and I know these are scary times and
it is okay to be scared but we need to stop letting fear guide how we make our
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I’m not saying these things to back a political candidate or
to impose my opinions on people, I’m saying them because I love my country and
I hate to see it’s people suffer whether it be from the virus itself or from
the panic this virus is causing.</div>
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{page:WordSection1;}</style>c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-28780390113643325272020-03-21T16:58:00.000-07:002020-03-22T10:01:13.701-07:00Guest Artist: Payne - Notes from the Inside<span style="font-size: large;"><i>These last couple of days and weeks I have witnessed my neighborhood, my city, my country and this entire world struggle as the COVID-19 virus spreads. </i></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><i>Here in the United States, some leaders have stepped up and called for all Americans to be fully supported through this devastating economic and medical crisis, like Gov. Cuomo and Elizabeth Warren (no matter what you think of either of them, they have stepped up). </i></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><i>But, beyond a few examples, the lack of honest leadership and <u>the dearth of true patriotism - what it really means to be an American -</u> has appalled me.</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><i>And then an old friend, Payne sent me this and I didn't feel so alone.</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><u><b>NOTES FROM THE INSIDE</b></u></span><i> </i></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">My name is Payne, I am a concerned citizen of these United
States with mild autism, at this moment the country is in the middle of a
pandemic that seems like it’ll get worse before it gets better, on Monday I got
told that I wouldn’t be able to come to work until this whole thing blows over,
It doesn’t help that I keep hearing scary headlines about this situation,
setting off a bunch of irrational thoughts in my head and on top of that I
heard that our president is considering a national lockdown which will really
get people panicking, I know that China is where this virus first came from but
the person I blame for all this is our president, a selfish, entitled jerk who
thinks that he can do whatever he wants and there won’t be any consequences for
his actions, he should’ve put measures in place to prevent, or at least contain
this but instead he blew it off and as usual didn’t listen to anybody about it
because he knows everything and he’s always right and everybody else is always
wrong, meanwhile people are dying from this disease and even the people who
aren’t sick are suffering because like me they’ve been essentially laid off and
can’t make money and other people are panicking and buying up a bunch of stuff
from the nearby supermarket, it just makes me sad how much the irresponsibility
of a few can lead to the the craziness of many, it seems like we’re all going
crazy and falling apart when we should be coming together and helping each
other get through this time even if we’re not making direct contact with each
other, I don’t know how long this will last but I do know we need to stop being
afraid and come together to help each other through this really dark time and
actually take action against this disease even if it’s only by washing our
hands with soap and water.</span></div>
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{page:WordSection1;}</style><br />c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-64698298040496769812018-01-02T08:45:00.001-08:002019-06-13T12:04:31.971-07:00Grassroots is Dead. Long Live GrassrootsIt took everything left inside after another long-ass brutal freelance gig to take out the camera, charge it up and then get down to Grassroots.<br />
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Just like I did the night <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2013/09/in-memoriam-as-new-year-begins-in-lieu.html">Florence died </a>and the night <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2013/04/dust-to-dust-and-then-new-cities-rose.html">Seymour</a> died, when I grabbed my camera and my thoughts so I could make sure their long-day journey into night didn't disappear with them. <br />
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Had to do the same with Grassroots. <a href="https://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2008/10/sunday-memories-bar.html">Every pivotal moment I had between 1976 and 1983</a> I had at that bar before I switched over to girls and coffee shops and <a href="http://lostwomynsspace.blogspot.com/2013/02/duchess.html">the Duchess</a> for a while.<br />
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But after returning to boys and a more solitary existence, <a href="https://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/04/beauty-in-eye-of.html">there was Grassroots</a>. Stumbling through my city, this world and way too many stupid relationships left me feeling like like the rug was constantly being pulled out from under me. <a href="https://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/04/sunday-memories-bar-part-two-i-call.html">Grassroots </a>was the one thing that stayed consistent. <br />
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Anytime there was someone I liked, I took them to Grassroots. Anytime there was a crisis, I went to Grassroots. Anytime I just wanted a quiet visit with good friends, I went to Grassroots. And one of the most important conversations I had about how to love a dying parent happened at Grassroots with <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2012/10/sunday-memories-god-in-dominoes.html">Kosky</a>.<br />
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The visits became more sporadic over the decades as I drank less, worked out more and had less money to blow. But still, as I joked with a young colleague recently, the seats knew my ass from way back. <br />
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That bar held my life's DNA.<br />
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Over three days this past week, I took about 700 photos, and I still didn't capture Grassroots' core or my love, even after bumping into <a href="http://vanishingnewyork.blogspot.com/2018/01/the-grassroots-tavern.html">Jeremiah of Vanishing New York</a> and pouring my heart out.<br />
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Found myself telling him stories I hadn't remembered until that moment, could never ever put anywhere but in fiction. I even found myself describing a certain event that, while it just about destroyed a part of me, <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/01/rare-friendships-coming-home.html">my Yeudi</a> and the guys at the bar - Frazier, Cliff, Eric, Bobby, Mike, Langley - made sure I was O.K. "They had your back," Jeremiah said. Looking back 40 years, I suddenly realized, yeah. They did. In a time when women were so rarely protected, I was.<br />
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Still, in between reminiscing, I kept snapping.<br />
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But, even if I fell short there, I captured others people's hearts, broken and otherwise.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">The two brothers have been coming here for 20 years - they too had all the big talks at this table or one near by. They always joked: "When Grassroots closes, it's the end. We're going to have to move back home upstate."</td></tr>
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On the last night, New Years, I dragged my <a href="http://tedkrever.com/">Mariner</a> aka my <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/03/look-back-in-love-at-home.html">lovely husband</a> down to say goodbye. He stood patiently for hours as I took another 370 pictures, hung with the <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Confessions-Repeat-Offender-Musings-Myself/dp/0692607242/ref=sr_1_fkmr0_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1514908326&sr=8-2-fkmr0&keywords=phil+giambri">Ancient Mariner aka the best storyteller around</a>, hooted and hollered, became that old barfly that I once was at the tender age of 17 and had a shot of rye - my first drink at the bar in 1976 and now my last. For a couple of hours I was all the parts of me I had forgotten or had packed away.<br />
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We left after midnight and in the new minutes of 2018, I cried all the way to Veselka's. c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-42552397969531691752018-01-02T06:38:00.000-08:002018-01-02T06:38:01.352-08:00Coming soon: Grassroots Stories and a F*&*) Load of Pictures<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Thank you, <a href="http://vanishingnewyork.blogspot.com/2018/01/the-grassroots-tavern.html">Jeremiah. </a><br />
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And may a new year be a happy one for this old bar.c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-28238032951535342522017-08-23T00:00:00.000-07:002017-08-23T07:48:02.352-07:00The Rest of Her New York<i><b>Some folks have asked where Her New York went to. </b></i><br />
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In two fire-proof safes were over 50 hours of video of Her New York that had waited patiently for more than a decade to be woven into a living story.<br />
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They were put away, along with the video camera, in 2006 when Florence became sick. Still photos could be taken quickly and with one hand while caring for her or running back and forth between her home and work and doctors and pharmacies and delis and Medicaid offices and...<br />
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Regardless of all those errands, <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/03/look-back-in-love-my-mama-done-told-me.html">through Florence's illness</a> and<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2008/12/sunda.html"> her death</a> the search for Her New York kept unfolding for eight years.<br />
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But, the pain of the world, as a friend wrote, from senseless murders and bombings and hatred pouring out of every corner of the planet froze any word that sought home.<br />
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Perhaps it was time to return to the beginning and unpack those videos. Perhaps it was time to step back into the timelessness of video-making, something put down in those early days of an illness overtaking <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2011/07/aftermath-dedicated-to-florence.html">a great artist's life</a>. Perhaps it was time to weave a new story about searching for home, a home all of us yearn for. <br />
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Until then, a brief rest.<br />
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<b>Related Posts:</b><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/05/this-will-be-her-sunday-memories-of.html">This Will Be Her Sunday Memories of What Florence Taught Me</a><br />
<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2011/07/aftermath-dedicated-to-florence.html"><br />
</a> <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2011/07/aftermath-dedicated-to-florence.html">The Aftermath Dedicated to Florence</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2008/12/sunda.html">The Memorial Program</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/03/look-back-in-love-my-mama-done-told-me.html">My Mama Done Told Me</a>c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-89786662900599355502016-10-08T00:00:00.000-07:002016-10-08T00:00:03.926-07:00I Sing the Body 38th Street<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpFiJZKdoIWmd__4JoaVMfdyIT7bNe0COo_9ardoOTDfDEenjNddl1YGCRXVN4EBYFp_yadgOMHzbSMcvs5js_vOBkH8rI94kUa8oyTGgTMKAm_-ufDDCVzO-nmIEipt02oOmOIBTJH-Y/s1600/38th+balcony+of+body.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpFiJZKdoIWmd__4JoaVMfdyIT7bNe0COo_9ardoOTDfDEenjNddl1YGCRXVN4EBYFp_yadgOMHzbSMcvs5js_vOBkH8rI94kUa8oyTGgTMKAm_-ufDDCVzO-nmIEipt02oOmOIBTJH-Y/s400/38th+balcony+of+body.JPG" /></a></div><br />
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At some point it began to get to her, especially when it was a baby or a circumstance of great injustice. So she went to her boss, the big medical examiner and asked him how he got through day after day of proof that mankind could be such a miserable, murdering creature.<br />
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"I surround myself with beauty," he replied, pointing to paintings he did of roses and tulips and sunflowers.<br />
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So she found her idea of beauty, a house in the country and when she felt her soul losing out to the horrors people were so capable of, she would briefly retreat and surround herself with beauty. Then she would go back out again.<br />
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These days, the news bursting with the <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/07/sunday-memories-when-there-were-no.html">horrors</a> people continue to be so capable of, the city streets offered its own beauty, perhaps not in flowers but in its own hidden cracks.<br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/07/sunday-memories-when-there-were-no.html">Sunday Memories of When There Were No Pictures For That Sound</a>c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-15924658710059292952016-07-10T00:00:00.000-07:002016-07-10T09:30:35.676-07:00Sunday Memories of When there Were No Pictures for that Sound<br />
One day in 2008 no one could image what that sound looked like.<br />
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The scream from the office down the hall filled us like a tsunami of words strung together painting horror a son a son a son found dead. <br />
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We all ran through fluorescent light down the linoleum hallway to grab hold tight a mother's body trying to push her way into another reality where the voice snapping from her cell phone was making a big mistake a big mistake calling the wrong number someone else with the same name and a son but not hers not hers.<br />
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But now it is 2016 and there are thousands and thousands of pictures of that sound, that sound of devastating heartbreak and a rage that must, if we are to be the country we claim to be, answered to.<br />
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I think that boyfriend in 1977 was complimenting me when he called me that.<br />
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But here are the things that are normal: <br />
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<li>the many ways to get from point A to point B, and if I didn't know, calling <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/02/sunday-memories-one-of-happiest-days-of.html">Baby Boy</a> (until he was eight years old and got bored with it), because he knew the entire MTA system - buses and subways and could map you from anywhere to anywhere, usually in multiple routes.</li>
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<li>riding without holding on because it was too crowded and the pole was too far away, not realizing until recently that it was just like surfing, just without the cold water or the sharks</li>
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<li>hanging out in between cars in the summer because the Lexington IRT never had any air conditioning in the summer, only in the winter, and it had air conditioning in the winter because it never had heat in the winter (that was the 70's and 80's)</li>
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<li>walking from one car to another, and when the young kid cop stopped me and said "hey that's against the law - didn't you see the sign?" I said, "Oh? I thought that was just for the tourists."</li>
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<li>NOT knowing which damn color goes with which line. They're called the BMT, IND and IRT for fucks sake.</li>
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/12/blood-on-tracks.html"><br />
</a> <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/12/blood-on-tracks.html">Blood On The Tracks</a><br />
<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/01/sunday-memories-how-old-were-you-your.html"></a> <br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/01/sunday-memories-how-old-were-you-your.html">Sunday Memories: How Old Were You Your First Time?</a></div>
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/12/day-in-life.html">A Day In The Life...</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/07/what-i-stared-at-while-wondering.html">What I Stared At While Wondering ....</a></div>
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/02/sunday-memories-one-of-happiest-days-of.html">Sunday Memories - One of the Happiest Days of My Life</a><br />
<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2008/07/sunday-memories-delayed-due-to-travel.html"><br />
</a> <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2008/07/sunday-memories-delayed-due-to-travel.html">Sunday Memories - Baby Boy Tadpole and Other Snapshots from Deep Waters</a><br />
<br />c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-61738287422508679732016-07-05T00:00:00.000-07:002016-07-05T09:14:24.742-07:00The Right to Par-tee!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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We were talking about religion and my neighbor said I don't want to offend, I don't know if you are religious and I said born Jewish, practice Buddhism and she said oh then you're not religious and I knew exactly what she meant and we couldn't stop laughing for a couple of seconds.<br />
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Because what a word means - like religious - depends on the day, the time, the place and what insecure power is running the show. <br />
<br />
Those kids, those children of the elite in Bangladesh who took that restaurant hostage and died in a hail of gunfire 11 hours later - those boys who had so much to offer had gotten somebody's meaning of religion that had nothing to do with God. <br />
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Someone had found the crack that lives in all teenagers as they grow their brains and figure out their lives and rebel against their parents - a crack that is made of anger and pimples and hormones and confusion. <br />
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But someone had promised those kids a salve to that rupture - the guarantee of something we all want - that feeling of joy when we connect with a greater good, a moment of beauty, a delight, gratitude, belonging, being part of a community - all the things that makes someone happy. Only this time packaged in a gun. <br />
<br />
The New York Times article said that <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2016/07/04/world/asia/bangladesh-dhaka-terrorism.html?WT.nav=top-news&action=click&amp=&amp=&amp=&amp=&amp=&amp=&clickSource=story-heading&em_pos=large&emc=edit_nn_20160705&hp=&module=first-column-region&nl=morning-briefing&nlid=25664743&pgtype=Homepage&region=top-news">one kid's father had noticed his son had stopped playing the guitar a couple of months ago and when asked the kid said, "Music is not good."</a> <br />
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What could that kid have possibly been feeling in that hail of bullets? The same feeling as when he had playing the guitar he had once loved? Do any of us really think he felt joy the moment the shooting started?<br />
<br />
The second most dangerous person in the world may be someone who isn't happy. But the most dangerous person is someone who is. Because it's hard to stick a gun in someone's hand when they are playing guitar or singing and dancing.<br />
<br />
So perhaps, in fact, I'm seriously religious. Because in my religion, my Buddha dances.<br />
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<b>**</b><br />
<b>Related Posts:</b><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/01/sunday-memories-cornering-joy.html">Cornering Joy </a><br />
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<a href="http://www.ificantdance.org/About/00-IfICantDance/OnEmmaGoldman">If I Can't Dance I Don't Want To Be Part of Your Revolution</a><br />
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<i>The full quote by Emma Goldman (from <a href="http://ificantdance.org/">ifIcantdance.org</a>): </i><br />
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<i>Admonished for dancing at a party in New York, she was told “that it did not behoove an agitator to dance. Certainly not with such reckless abandon, anyway.” </i><br />
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<i>Goldman responded furiously: “I did not believe that a Cause which stood for a beautiful ideal, for anarchism, for release and freedom from conventions and prejudice, should demand the denial of life and joy. I insisted that our Cause could not expect me to become a nun and that the movement should not be turned into a cloister. If it meant that, I did not want it.” </i><br />
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<br />c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-16466956102334737222016-07-03T00:00:00.000-07:002016-07-03T08:11:12.708-07:00Sunday Memories: Gambling for Freedom<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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The only way to find out all the details would be if one of us became so famous <a href="http://www.pbs.org/weta/finding-your-roots/">Henry Louis Gates, Jr</a>. had us on his show.<br />
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What I had heard was Sophie left behind her mother and brothers, especially the one that was supposed to be her favorite, to come to the United States. It was a gamble but she wanted a chance at a life that in Belarus was 100% impossible for Jews. Like going to school or working at what she wanted to work at or voting for who she wanted to vote for (although I'm not sure if she was even allowed to vote - both as a Jew and as a woman).<br />
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So she left her family forever and leaped into an unknown that promised the elusive dream of breathing and moving and being just as she was. Freedom.<br />
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First in Trenton and then in Brooklyn and then on the Lower East Side, the money tight, the tenements tough, the husband absent, somehow Sophie made a life and raised a child with more freedom than what she left behind.<br />
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That freedom didn't erase the poverty or the domestic abuse or the crushed dreams and the mean, mean loneliness. But it did make sure she could work where she wanted, read what she wanted, say what she wanted and vote how she so chose.<br />
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And her daughter, Florence, got to go to school and college and graduate school, not because she was or was not Jewish, but because she was talented and smart. And even if there were still rules and laws and customs that said she couldn't do everything she wanted to, Florence still had 100% more freedom than if she had been born in Belarus.<br />
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And because of that, I, Sophie's granddaughter, grew up with 100% more freedom than Florence, always believing it was my birthright to speak out loud and vote as I so chose and write bad poems (which, at times, is the epitome of freedom - it requires leaping into an elusive dream).<br />
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Money might still be tight but the apartment is as far from a tenement as you can go, there is no domestic abuse, loneliness is a long-ago memory, and I get to vote as I so choose.<br />
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It is because someone, a young girl, my grandmother, left her family forever and took a gamble on an elusive dream. <br />
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Happy Fourth of July.<br />
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<b>**</b><br />
<b>Related Posts:</b> <br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/11/refugees-dont-just-look-like-sunday.html">Refugees Don't Just Look Like Sunday Memories</a><br />
<br />c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-85428050981131308942016-06-30T00:00:00.000-07:002016-06-30T00:00:17.444-07:00It's Summer and Time to Recall Skating on Thick Ice<br />
<i><b>Originally posted August 7, 2014</b></i><br />
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They were like dolphins, whooshing around me.<br />
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A woman I probably saw at a dance or a demonstration or some revolutionary act maybe thirty years ago walked up to me as they zoomed by and said, "It's like the invasion of the skate boards!"<br />
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I laughed. "I was thinking, gee, I'd like to learn how to do that."<br />
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"Well, you know where to find them." She was laughing as she walked away.<br />
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One of the kids stopped, skate board propped on his sneaker. I snapped a picture.<br />
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"I think she just took your picture," another said under his breath.<br />
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"Yes. I did." I showed it to them.<br />
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"Are you going to post it somewhere?"<br />
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"Yeah."<br />
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"Like Instagram?"<br />
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"I'm old. I don't know what Instagram is." I started taking another picture and all the boys posed, gangsta-style. "Oh please, cut the bullshit." It was funny but not a picture.<br />
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"I always wanted to learn how to skate board but when I was growing up, girls didn't. Now girls do. It's really cool."<br />
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"Yeah," said one, all of them nodding like what's the big deal some of the best skaters they knew were girls. That revolution was normal to them.<br />
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I lifted the phone to take another picture and one gaves me a peace sign.<br />
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"What's that mean to you?"<br />
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"Peace," he said.<br />
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Crash noise that could only come from wood plank and metal wheels not going where they were intended interrupted us.<br />
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"#&$#*@#*$% AND THEN #$&#, followed.<br />
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"Real peaceful," I say.<br />
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"He's not with us," the kid said.c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-74202689195445985722016-06-28T00:00:00.000-07:002016-06-28T02:18:30.346-07:00Home Bound<br />
You've made your home a haven from <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/05/summer-reruns-of-beginnings-my-private.html">your city</a>, a friend told me.<br />
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It's true. The city feeling less and less familiar, <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/01/cold-snap-encores-sunday-memories-of-st.html">street life</a> and <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/06/home.html">home</a> now inhabit <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/01/well-always-have-watertower.html">original glass art</a> and cats found on the street and a collage of re-appropriated furniture from friends, neighbors, garbage day and Craig's List, <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/12/sunday-memories-sunday-visits.html">all reminding me of her</a> and him and them and that time we and once upon our days.<br />
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I now look down to see what I miss. Yeah, yeah, their faces were very interesting. But the picture I took of their faces was more like the story others might tell when they went "back home" to other neighborhoods in other states and shared over holiday dinners or at a wedding rehearsal dinner what's it like to live here.<br />
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The picture I took of their shoes, however rushed and surreptitiously snapped, tells me a story of how I never left where I came from and and yet all the worlds I traveled through.<br />
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Related Posts:<br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/05/summer-reruns-of-beginnings-my-private.html">Summer Reruns of the Beginnings: My Private Coney </a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/01/cold-snap-encores-sunday-memories-of-st.html">Cold Snap Encores: Sunday Memories Of St. Marks Place</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/12/sunday-memories-sunday-visits.html">Sunday Memories: Sunday Visits</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/06/home.html">Home</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/01/well-always-have-watertower.html">We'll Always Have the Watertowers</a>c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-87417219240728531132016-06-26T00:00:00.000-07:002016-06-26T00:00:16.118-07:00Sunday Pride Memories Make the Future!<br />
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When the right to love is at stake, doesn't matter what you march in. Your feet fly across all the 'no you can't. There's only YES. The blisters can wait until tomorrow.<br />
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And every heartbreak gets mended with more love than ever imagined <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/06/for-orlando-with-addendum-look-of-love.html">until it's indestructible</a>.<br />
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And to the woman, still alive, living alone in a small town in another state, <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/06/the-lionesses-rule-pride-and-marry-if.html">who loved Florence all her life</a> but whose family - all her children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren - has never known the multi-colors of her heart, a happy pride to you.<br />
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You couldn't live in a world made of your love, but everyone is marching so this little boy can live in a world where no one ever has to hide again. <br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/06/for-orlando-with-addendum-look-of-love.html">For Orlando with Addendum: The Look of Love Because This is What it Looks Like</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/06/the-lionesses-rule-pride-and-marry-if.html"></a><a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/06/the-lionesses-rule-pride-and-marry-if.html">The Lionesses Rule the Pride and Marry If They Wanna!</a><br />
<br />c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-72690829230722632552016-06-23T11:02:00.004-07:002016-06-23T11:02:41.248-07:00Like Summer In San Francisco<i><b>A summer rerun of this day in 2009. </b></i><br />
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Staring at a street that used to be in a bad neighborhood, we sipped expensive coffee in designer cups and talked of the weather.c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-82249818943684608692016-06-21T00:00:00.000-07:002016-06-21T00:00:00.298-07:00Living Summer<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjF34AlgRrz1uG_h8ZUt6UL1knNYJoBjv3z9_Q5OggrPLY00E0LcUkAnihIeKWsk-2NllTVhjXCRJj7uIbdMZ1zbKoyrGL33KUTOSfc9uuDQZvTS5yvbW-zWOXNCS3VmDpmV480QyU3vPQ/s1600/20160620_181423.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="225" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjF34AlgRrz1uG_h8ZUt6UL1knNYJoBjv3z9_Q5OggrPLY00E0LcUkAnihIeKWsk-2NllTVhjXCRJj7uIbdMZ1zbKoyrGL33KUTOSfc9uuDQZvTS5yvbW-zWOXNCS3VmDpmV480QyU3vPQ/s400/20160620_181423.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><br />
These days I only see a couple of spots in the city where, when it gets warm, people drag their chairs outside and live like we always did.<br />
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c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-85031029355186126492016-06-19T00:00:00.000-07:002016-06-19T00:00:00.179-07:00It May Be Sunday But It Will Never a Memory: the Right to Glitter and Be Gay<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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I don't think I was the only one to take Florence to a dyke bar. But, I know I was the only one to take her on her 60th birthday.<br />
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We huddled at the bar and I know we drank because I never knew Florence to not drink when there was something nearby to be drunk. I pulled out a pile of wrapped presents - all books - and said "Happy Birthday".<br />
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Each and every one of those books was about getting older in Lesbianland - coming out, getting freed, living your life on your own terms.<br />
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We looked through them and drank and then I think she went off to meet friends. (I was not invited. That's because she didn't tell anyone she had kids. A bit of a surprise for some of them at her memorial.)<br />
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The world outside the bar wasn't safe. Florence fought with and chased after more than a couple of muggers. She lived in a neighborhood that watched everything she did. What she was and what she wanted was still considered a mental illness, even if the AMA had taken it off the "sicko" list.<br />
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But that bar? That bar was safe. That bar and all the bars like it gave us shelter from the storm. <br />
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My mom took her books back home and in between teaching piano students in her living room, she'd pull them out from under the couch and look at the life she was finally calling her own.<br />
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I don't know if she ever hung out at that 18th Street bar again. I just know it was there if she wanted to. Whatever she did or didn't do, that night, we both felt safe from the world. It was, however briefly, a rare moment for both of us where we could be family to one another in a place that didn't remind us of the awful past. It was, however briefly, our new home to celebrate her birthday.<br />
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And that's what a good dyke / gay bar is. Shelter. From the storm or your life or your past or your fears or a broken heart or your family or your ex (unless they drink there too) or a world that refuses to say the words that admit you are a part of it. In that bar, you are safe and you are home and you are family.<br />
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I barely drink, I hate going out and I'm married to a man (he went to Sarah Lawrence so he's as close to a writer/dyke I'm going to get in a man). But after Orlando, all I wanted was to go to every dyke and gay bar in the world and stand for safe and home and family.<br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/06/the-lionesses-rule-pride-and-marry-if.html">The Lionesses Rule The Pride and Marry If They Want To</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/06/the-look-of-love-because-this-is-what.html">The Look of Love Because This Is What It Looks Like</a>c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-90637168770132937612016-06-16T00:00:00.000-07:002016-06-16T00:00:18.762-07:00For Orlando with Addendum: The Look of Love Because This Is What It Looks Like<i><b>Originally post June 3, 2014. </b></i><br />
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Some places in the world you get killed for being human outside <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2013/06/special.html">the lines of man-made bullshit</a>.<br />
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But here on East 23rd Street, it is the touch <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2013/06/first-in-eyes-of-god-then-in-eyes-of.html">between two who walk the walk </a>towards an end that, along with taxes, is guaranteed.<br />
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It is the touch <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/01/big-leaps-and-little-steps-in-march-to.html">between me and the Mariner</a>, whether we are home or whether we are <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/01/big-leaps-and-little-steps-in-march-to.html">enjoying rare moments together</a>. <br />
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It is <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/05/part-one-look-of-love.html">molecular intimacy</a> grown from years of breathing together.<br />
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It is <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/06/in-memoriam-of-sunday-memory-cuz-its.html">the best friend</a>...<br />
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..<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/05/part-two-look-of-love.html">.the favorite lover</a>...<br />
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...<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/02/knock-down-seven.html">the only one</a>.<br />
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And, here on East 23rd Street, it's fucking normal.<br />
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It is<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2011/08/encore-sunday-memories-look-of-love.html"> Her New York.</a> <br />
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<u><b>And today June, 2016</b> i</u>t is the Democratic Senators filibustering for gun control, it's <a href="http://www.un.org/press/en/2016/sc12399.doc.htm">all members of the United Nations Security Council condemning the Orlando attacks (ALL of them)</a>, it's J<a href="https://www.facebook.com/kelly.karas/posts/10208014748299487">etBlue passengers and crew loving and supporting the grandmother of one of the victims</a>...it is the world.<br />
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It's Our New World. <br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2013/06/first-in-eyes-of-god-then-in-eyes-of.html">First In The Eyes Of God, Then In The Eyes Of New York And Now By The Law Of The Land!!!</a></div>
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</b> <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2011/08/encore-sunday-memories-look-of-love.html">Sunday Memories: The Look Of Love</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/05/part-one-look-of-love.html">The Look Of Love: Part One</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/05/part-two-look-of-love.html">The Look Of Love: Part Two</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2013/05/sunday-memories-future-look-of-love.html">Sunday Memories: The Future Look Of Love</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/02/knock-down-seven.html">Knock Down Seven...</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/06/in-memoriam-of-sunday-memory-cuz-its.html">In Memoriam Of A Sunday Memory - Cuz Its Your Birthday</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/01/big-leaps-and-little-steps-in-march-to.html">The Big Leaps And Little Steps In The March To Commitment</a><br />
<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2013/06/special.html"><br />
</a> <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2013/06/special.html">Special Encore: The Lionesses Rule The Pride</a>c.o. moedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04842423601233807880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8938111885824771622.post-56050440636162420022016-06-12T08:56:00.000-07:002016-06-12T08:56:05.176-07:00The World of Dana<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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Today we say not goodbye but "Wow! What a great woman!" <br />
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Below are all the posts about her, including some of her wonderful short stories.<br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/03/why-i-wish-i-could-write-like-dana.html"><br />
</a> <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/03/why-i-wish-i-could-write-like-dana.html">Why I Wish I Could Write Like Dana: Throw My Seashells Back by Dana Schechter</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/03/sunday-memories-of-dana-and-mta.html">Sunday Memories of Dana and the MTA: Bus Drivers and Me</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/03/in-danas-world-everything-falls-into.html">In Dana's World, Everything Falls Into Place At Exactly the Right Moment: Perfect Timing</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/03/what-time-is-it-time-is-now.html">What Time Is It? The Time Is Now: Time Flies...</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/02/danas-sunday-memories-of-pots-of-gold.html">Dana's Sunday Memories: The Pot of Gold</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/02/dana-never-took-anything-lying-down.html">Dana Never Took Anything Lying Down: </a><br />
<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/02/dana-never-took-anything-lying-down.html">Bedtime Stories (aka Her and Trudy's Excellent Adventure)</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/02/celebrating-another-story-from-dana.html">Celebrating Another Story of Dana's: The Scent of Sandalwood</a><br />
<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/02/sunday-memories-of-best-writer-ive-ever.html"><br />
</a> <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/02/sunday-memories-of-best-writer-ive-ever.html">Sunday Memories of the Best Writer's I've Ever Known: </a><br />
<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/02/sunday-memories-of-best-writer-ive-ever.html">Guest Artist Dana: If I Bring Forth What Is Inside Me, What I Bring Forth Will Save Me</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2016/01/even-as-twilight-fills-room-what-dana.html">Even As Twilight Fills the Room, What Dana Says Bursts Open Our Hearts</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/12/what-dana-says-starts-new-year-right.html">What Dana Says Starts the New Year Right</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/10/what-dana-says-is-blessing-for-future.html">What Dana Says Is a Blessing for the Future</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/08/summer-reruns-of-day-at-beach-mamalochen.html">A Day at the Beach: Mamalochen</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/07/you-never-expect-what-dana-says.html">You Never Expect What Dana Says</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/06/sunday-moments-and-memories-of-what.html">Sunday Moments and Memories of What Dana Says</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/05/what-dana-says-why-i-visit-dana-or-how.html">What Dana Says: Why I Visit Dana Or How I Keep Writing</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/04/sunday-memories-first-supper.html">Sunday Memories: The First Supper</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2015/03/a-visit-to-dana.html">A Visit to Dana</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/07/summer-reruns-of-dana-old-school-high.html">Old School, High Tech Revisited</a><br />
<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/01/draw-dana-commanded-and-art-burst-onto.html"><br />
</a> <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2014/01/draw-dana-commanded-and-art-burst-onto.html">"Draw!" Dana Commanded and Art Burts onto the Wall</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2012/12/miracle-on-grand-street.html">Miracle on Grand Street</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2012/01/operative-word-was-and.html">The Operative Word Was AND</a><br />
<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2011/11/guest-artist-dana-encore-one-day-i.html"><br />
</a> <a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2011/11/guest-artist-dana-encore-one-day-i.html">Guest Artist Dana: "One Day I Wrote a Sentence"</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2011/11/guest-artist-dana-encore-sad-little.html">Guest Artist Dana: The Sad Little Crone</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/12/day-of-miracles.html">Day of Miracles</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/10/trudy-and-dana.html">Trudy and Dana</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/08/secret-to-long-life.html">The Secret to a Long Life</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/04/part-seven-view-from-kitchen.html">Part Seven: View from a Kitchen</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2010/02/guest-artist-dana-gift-that-kept-giving.html">Guest Artist Dana: The Gift that Kept Giving</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/11/guest-artist-dana-on-parenting-or-how-i.html">Guest Artist Dana: On Parenting (or How I Survived Motherhood)</a><br />
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<a href="http://myprivateconey.blogspot.com/2009/08/guest-artist-dana-wisdom-of-ages.html">Guest Artist Dana: Wisdom of the Ages</a><br />
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