A My Private Coney project Flash non-fiction, brief moments and old memories of a city and mother's emotional and physical real estate disappearing at the speed of heartbreak.
Thursday, December 11, 2014
Going Forward Glancing Back
The 'wine' store has more hard booze bottles then wine in its half-a-block window. O.K., so some of them are made of plastic and have nothing in them. But, they and the rows of florescent lights lay bare what the real deal is inside the big store.
This place is the place of ye olde cocktail hour, when people actually mixed drinks at the end of a long day. Since the neighborhood surrounding it still has those folks, perhaps now retire, business is still brisk.
I went in once - young and brokenhearted, facing the holidays alone - and stumbled out with a pint in the back pocket of my jeans. It was the only paint-stroke I could think of that looked like how I felt. Obviously, the rest of the evening didn't go well.
The next 36 years passing that brightly-lit window was like rushing past a furious smear of white light, as if graffiti had been blasted away but lettering in the shape of bottles still peered through, insisting their permanency.
It was only on a walk down to make necessary peace in an old beloved bar that a new eye looked into the doorway.
MY PRIVATE CONEY presents IT WAS HER NEW YORK, the short stories that accompany the work-in-progress video and photo collection of the same name (myprivateconey.com - media link - IT WAS HER NEW YORK). The stories and the media explore the tender rubble that holds both my mother, Florence's and New York's soul as one disappears into old age and the other into gentrification. All are real observations and/or experiences with very little tall-tale telling.
Except when it makes the story better.
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