Sunday, May 27, 2012

Sunday Memories: The Arrival of Summer From Sears & Roebuck's


I really couldn't tell time for... well ...  like a really long time.  

So, to marked the passing of what I couldn't read, I did like plants do or what my cat does now -- by time, by light, by sound, by wind and, in my case, by the leaves on the trees in Sheriff Park.

As the trees got greener and the smells in the air weren't of radiators and cold, wet wool, I knew, just knew there would be a knock on the door and our version of Santa Claus, the United States Postal Delivery Man would appear with the holy grail of wonderfulness - a Sears & Roebuck box.

And without fail, at the very last possible second of the very last possible day that demanded I wear a sweater and my sturdy, once-a-year oxfords from Kaplan's on Clinton Street, that knock would come.

Behold. Summer and my Sneakers had arrived.


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Additional postings:

Florence's sneakers walk the talk


Home and the love between Jupiter and Rags (r.i.p)

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Another Visit From Another Her New York


Ilona


The Face Beneath The Hat
By Chelsea Dreher

Before an unhappy marriage
Before a baby and two lost
Before a holocaust that would
Erase all hope

Ilona had possibilities.
New York had 34th Street
Ilona had her studio 

Forgotten places
Misplaced people
Tragedy in faded photos

An old woman
Wrapped in a blanket
Holds a piece of cardboard
"Heartbreak-Please Give"


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Ilona came to New York from Hungary in the late twenties.  As soon as she saw the city from the boat, she wanted to go back to the vineyards and mountains.  She lived in Harlem with her brother, Herman and made paper flowers on the Lower East Side for $4 a week.  This led to a career as a designer with a business card. Heady stuff for an immigrant single lady.  Famous hat makers used her handmade flowers on hats and gowns. She was my mother. 

She married, gave up her 34th Street studio and had me. Our little family moved to the Bronx where there were parks.   I moved to the Village when I was seventeen.

-- Chelsea Dreher

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Rain Encore: ... and Dancing in the Rain

Originally posted Thursday, July 30, 2009

 
It wasn't that I had forgotten.  It's just that I hadn't had to remember. But there she was, a little girl jumping and giggling and running and shouting in Wednesday's downpour.

When I was young and it poured humongous cats and dogs, Florence would send me out in maybe rain boots, maybe sneakers to play in the storm.  I'd race around the empty courtchyard and jump and dance and skip and stick my face up into thunder and wind.

As of her decline deepened, the months and months and months turned into years and years, and to pass the time we would watch Singing In The Rain over and over and over again.  The blessing of dementia allowed it to be an exciting revisit, one she didn't realize had just happened the week before.

Today, quickly snapping a picture as I futilely raced against getting soaked and miserably wet, I wondered if her quirky idea of playtime came from that passionate dance Gene Kelly did when he realized he was in love.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Sunday Memories: The Long Road



In memory of Maura who walks the long road a little bit ahead of us.


We all walk the long road
I cannot stay
There's no need to say goodbye

Oh, the friends and family...
All the memories going round
Round, round round...

I have wished for so long...
How I wished for you today

And the wind keeps rollin'
And the sky keeps turning grey
And the sun is setting
The sun will rise another day

I have wished for so long...
How I wish for you today

I have wished for so long...
How I wish for you today
Will I walk the long road?
We all walk the long road

Eddie Vedder with Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan

Friday, May 18, 2012

Special Announcement! A New Blog From Argentina


Gaby, a wonderful photographer and writer who works in television in Buenos Aires recently came to New York for a visit.


There's something exciting and expanding when a visitor observes the intimacy of one's home.  Her postings of her trip can be seen here.  This new blog, La Piel de Las Cosas, will also explore her own wonderful city, the only place I'd live outside of New York, allowing us to see her Buenos Aires and other glimpses of home.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

The Sudden Delight Of Finding Something New


The windows in the county clerk were high up and big and dirty and they looked out onto a little street I had never seen before.

The little street was filled with trees and a couple of big statues and no cars and on the other side were big windows on a hallway in a big building. The people walking from one window to another made it look like moving postcards.   Chunks of square rocks lined the side by the big windows.

In a corner of the little street, an older lady did Tai Chi by her shopping bags, then put her baseball hat back on, picked up her bags and made a cell phone call. A couple leaned on the base of a statue and filled out paperwork while giving touches that only a couple together for a while gave - the fixing of a collar, the patting of a hand, the leaning in of heads over mundane information.

Birds flew in and out of branches.

Where was this place?

Once released from the clerk's office, I ran around the building looking for it.  There it was, hidden from the main street, this small stretch of Pearl Street and those chunks of rocks weren't just rocks.  They were four fountains

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Sunday Memories In The Park With Mom

Sheriff Street Park
Until Florence got sick, I hadn't been back to the playground since kid-ness.

It was now renovated.  They had torn down the kindergarten building that had the public bathrooms we used during our kindergarten bathroom breaks, and put up a jungle gym instead.  The baby swings were still there and so was the sprinkler, which, when I was little, had been my idea of heaven.

But the sandbox was no longer there because sand had been deemed unsanitary. The big swings were gone because they had been deemed too dangerous (and judging from a small scar on my chin, perhaps they were).  And the Men's Park was still empty.

However, the Bridge still loomed above the playground.  That constant song of train and car was the same as it always had been, from the very beginning of me playing there, sometimes by myself, sometimes with other kids, and when it was summer, sometimes in the summer camp programFlorence, five stories up, practicing, always a shout away if it was time for me to come up or if I had a question, like could I play outside a little bit longer.  That Bridge never left even when I went off to discovered Washington Square Park.

When I moved "uptown", I would pass the playground, year after year, decade after decade, on my way to visit Florence or a friend sitting shiva or a rare reunion with friends still on Grand Street.  But I don't recall ever entering it. 

Then Florence got sick.  Almost over night, she no longer could rush through her city and her life as ferociously as blood rushed through a body.  Suddenly days were filled with constant care.

So our big excursion, outside of making it to the car service waiting on the corner, became a trek to one of the park benches that faced the sprinkler and was practically under the Bridge.  We'd sit there for what felt like hours, but probably wasn't and listen to the only thing that hadn't changed, that song of train and car.

And then, Florence, with growing awareness that this was it for her day, her life, would ask to go home before she had to admit how heartbroken she was that the playground was now the limits of her world.



Thursday, May 10, 2012

In Case Of Emergency...



The test took the time it took and by the time it was over, it was time for lunch.

So me and the Mariner headed to our version of hospital food.  Surrounded by every language in the book - Brooklyn, Long Island, French - we ate and kibbitz with the "maitre d'" (which I don't know how to say in Yiddish) and by the time the Mariner got back from the bathroom, said Maitre and me had found out we grew up down the street from one another and his friend still lived in the Quartchyard.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

"Too Late To Stop Now"*


At his 70th birthday party, his wife-friend-comrade-in-arms, in her homage to Miles, sang his praises in a few perfect words that dropped pearls onto a single strand, and his daughter bantered back and forth with him on the merits of bands and musicians that only a few would know unless you were in the know and they were.

And the rest of us heralded his passion, the sound and the fury that insisted on music being understood as a pillar of our hearts and souls and thus our world, a passion that included everyone, be it neighbor or sibling, be it colleague or friend, or be it a kid from a small town writing to him decades before email and online and internet and click, requesting a copy of his top picks of the year and enclosing a dollar for the xerox, only to have a copy made and the dollar returned because in Bob's world everyone was welcomed to the table.


*from Van Morrison's "Into the Mystic" and what was written on the birthday cake



Sunday, May 6, 2012

Guest Artist: Jacques - Sunday Memories In The Making - Williamsburg

A series of photographs and favorite poems from Jacques, a Frenchman who wanders through Her New York, capturing little mysteries and secret corners.



If you go far enough out
you can see the Universe itself,
all the billion light years summed up time
only as a flash, just as lonely, as distant
as a star on a June night
if you go far enough out.

And still, my friend, if you go far enough out
you are only at the beginning

— of yourself.

Rolf Jacobsen, "Breathing Exercise"

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No photograph may be used without permission from Jacques. Please contact my private coney for more information.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Guest Artist: Jacques - Park Avenue

A series of photographs and favorite poems from Jacques, a Frenchman who wanders through Her New York, capturing little mysteries and secret corners.



You sit here now on the hard chair and think about these things and you don't know whether you are happy or sad. And you wonder if you'll ever think some day about now, and if then everything happening now will be nice to think about.

Alvin Levin, "Love is Like Park Avenue"

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Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Guest Artist: Jacques - Tribeca

A series of photographs and favorite poems from Jacques, a Frenchman who wanders through Her New York, capturing little mysteries and secret corners.


"Hi Friends
I am looking for a nice lady to be my wife!
I'm single
Never married
And I have no kids
Call Robert"


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Sunday, April 29, 2012

Guest Artist: Jacques - Sunday Memories - Now And Then....


A series of photographs and favorite poems from Jacques, a Frenchman who wanders through Her New York, capturing little mysteries and secret corners.


The corner of 127th Street and Saint Nicholas Avenue


2004


Just the other morning



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Thursday, April 26, 2012

Guest Artist: Jacques - Subway #2

A series of photographs and favorite poems from Jacques, a Frenchman who wanders through Her New York, capturing little mysteries and secret corners.


Ce que les hommes nomment amour
Est bien petit, bien restreint et bien faible,
Comparé à cette ineffable orgie,
À cette sainte prostitution de l’âme qui se donne tout entière,
Poésie et charité, à l'imprévu qui se montre,
À l'inconnu qui passe.

Charles Baudelaire, "Les Foules"

"What men call love is a very small, restricted, feeble thing compared with this ineffable orgy, this divine prostitution of the soul giving itself entire, all its poetry and all its charity, to the unexpected as it comes along, to the stranger as he passes."

Charles Baudelaire, “Crowd” (translated by William A. Sigler)


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No photograph may be used without permission from Jacques. Please contact my private coney for more information.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Guest Artist: Jacques - Woman In Times Square

A series of photographs and favorite poems from Jacques, a Frenchman who wanders through Her New York, capturing little mysteries and secret corners.


On est ce qu’on est, en partie tout au moins.

Samuel Beckett, "Molloy"


"We are what we are, in part at least."

Samuel Beckett, “Molloy” (translated by JB)


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Sunday, April 22, 2012

Sunday Memories: Broadway of The East

Me and Tillie knew East Broadway. Each block had its own story, more often than not, several.

Depending on whether you came from the east or came from the west, Zafi's was the beginning or the end. Tillie came here during her daughter's music lessons or dance lessons or art lessons at Henry Street, and here is where I bought attempts at coaxing Florence to love food again.


The mikvah Cindy raised money for, a place I never entered, we didn't observe those laws. But someone, not Jewish, not from New York, someone I took down to show what my normal was, ran up those steps as if it was a tourist attraction and threw open the door to see what was inside. That display of entitlement and disregard is still something I envy and fume at.


Down the street, PS 134's playground that once housed my father's tenement home...



The pretty Henry Street Settlement buildings... Tillie thinks this is where she took piano lessons with a horrible lady.

I always thought it was where Florence tried to live when she was studying piano, still a teenager. Gramma lived nearby, maybe Brooklyn, maybe Hester Street, but Florence missed her too much and moved back home.

Across the street, once Dry Dock Bank, now Immigrant, where I saved up all the money I earned from being a mother's helper one summer ($75) and then blew it all and bought Florence a metal cellist and flute player.
The special Senior Citizen place lives there now on the 4th floor and when Florence still could hide all that was unraveling while attending the special old-lady-exercise-in-chair class, they let me know something was wrong.

The Bialystok nursing home on the corner of Clinton, the first place I ever volunteered at age 13 running the film projector, the place Tillie's Gramma attended Yom Kippur service. It was a traditional service, the women upstairs, the men downstairs and nobody under 70. The women complaining at one another, the men shouting up to the balcony, "Sha, sha!"

It's closed now. They're making it into luxury condominiums.

The remaining Jewish organizations not yet condominiums...

And a newly empty lot preparing for something...


In the midst of all this, Tillie takes me to the plaque where remembrance stays steady in bronze.



And her Gramma.

It was a circle of friends.

And Tillie, in her Gramma's accent, an accent no one has anymore, told me everything her Gramma thought about her friends.

Her Gramma was the first resident at the then-new Edgies senior housing. In those days, across the street were benches by the Seward Park library - a row on the left, a row on the right. All the old ladies sat on the left. And all the drug addicts sat on the right. It was East Broadway detente.

We walked past the Paperbag players, still there.

And the Forward which wasn't...

Tillie's Gramma did the Yiddish crossword puzzle everyday until they went weekly, her name published because she always got them right. Now, it's condominiums, briefly famous not because of what it once was but because one of its famous tenants got busted buying hard drugs around the corner.

At the corner of Rutgers... the bridge peering through a street so secretly pretty.

We paused at the Yeshiva, a place I always knew I was not welcomed. East Broadway detente allowed both the yeshive bokhers and me on the same sidewalk. However, Tillie, with no fear, took pictures. She's from Queens so she didn't care what they thought.

It was the plastic balloon the boys had made got me to ask for a picture. Tillie quickly snapped while I marveled at an old toy I loved - a tube of plastic and a little straw - we had played with this toy for years until we found bars, boys and drinking. I hadn't seen it in years, not since video games replaced everything.

And as we headed into Chinatown, an old tenement with laundry hanging to dry peaked from behind a new condominium.

A Hasidic man, behind the wheel of a SUV filled with bouncy little boys asking me where I was from....


...telling me about his father growing up on Stanton, all the streets near by rolling off his tongue - Suffolk, Ridge, Allen, Norfolk.... all songs of place all our parents and grandparents knew.

As we crossed Allen into Chinatown and walked under the bridge my Gramma lived next to...

...I showed Tillie the spot where once beautiful lettering in the sidewalk said The Florence Theater. Every Friday night my father would stop us on our way home from Gramma's and point out how Florence had her own piece of sidewalk.


Later I read the theater had secret passageways to buildings in the neighborhood so the gangsters could avoid enemies. It now is an entrance to an underground mall.

The food markets....


The shoe stores.....

the familiar wooden steps....
And the store that used to be the Chinatown 5&10 that the parents of Tillie's friend owned.


And then at the end of East Broadway...
...we headed back into what life is now.


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Photos by both Tillie and C.O.

Special thanks to Tripping With Marty

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Before The Witch The Wardrobe And The Lion...

... it was the Bench the Lobby and the Boy Next Door.

Dana sends her bench to a new home.

All of a sudden another door opened, not into the lobby where almost four decades of neighbors often gathered, but into another home, left behind many years ago when it was necessary to return to Her New York.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

The Song Remains The Same

Nicer, neater, way more modern and faster than past visits, Sunday afternoon was spent as quietly as if we had just parked ourselves in a suburban living room filled with soothing pictures and muted surfaces.

What hadn't changed was that choral piece floating over walls made of cloth, constant contrapuntal words from elderly patients, investigating doctors, dutiful daughters, tired nurses....

"Do you know where you are are you home Poppy, let her do that NO! I'm not signing that I'm going for a cigarette and then I was here a couple of years ago so when I stabbed myself I came back here fill this out was there pain pee into this cup you want to read my book what have we here the test showed that..."

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Encore Sunday Memories: A CowGrrl Grows In Brooklyn


She is the rare bright moment in a long, bad memory.

Florence had just gotten sick and days and weeks were scrambled into bloody battles of panic and fear that felt like driving down a treacherous mountain road in a hurricane with your eyes closed.

Somehow in the midst of our lives shattering, I got out for a free evening. I remembered I wore something pretty and even took a pretty handbag. I was determined to reclaim some part of something called 'hope' or 'I do have a life' or anything but what I did day in and day out.

There was a barbecue/fundraiser for some radical literary magazine in the backyard of some one's 20-something street studio apartment. The old school of writers were there and many were old. I knew no one except one person and she was busy either panicking about the reading or honing in potential sources of nourishment both living and dead.

In my rush to wear different clothes than the ones I wore taking care of Florence, I had forgotten how much I hated parties and how painfully inept I was at speaking to strangers.

I grabbed a soda and out of the corner of my eye saw a woman so open and self-confident, she seriously had it going on. I thought "she's the coolest person here." But couldn't ever imagine getting to know her. She was, in friends-ville, out of my league.

I decided to be zen-like in the hell I suddenly found myself in. I sat down on a rock in the tiny backyard and pretended to just be. How or why she sat down next to me I don't know but sometimes the universe is kind.

It wasn't just the flattery that she knew my work or even liked it. It wasn't just the delight in finding a writer who could carry on a conversation about writing with enthusiasm and clarity. It wasn't just the surprise of hearing interesting ideas about cowboys and westerns and all that American stuff I was clueless about. It was the delight and joy of finding unexpected connection in a time nothing connected.

Years later, she had a barbecue in her own backyard. All the worst things that could have happened since that day have happened. But one or two really wonderful things have happened as well.


Meet Bucko.